December - holiday - yet I am so brokee

fyuhh~
finally the super horrible mid - term test comes to an end. despite all the results, I still feel so grateful..
And you know what? I got an A (yes! literally A) on my calculus test.. yoohoo!! the truth is, what I learned from the so called "kisi - kisi" in bahasa is really exact with the questions which came out on the test on the D day.. yeahh Hoot~ (dance insanely like SNSD)

nevertheless, I got a bad mark (57). on one of my subjects .and it is one of the most important subjects in Computer Science... even though feeling depressed and regretful won't change anything, I still like to mourn over it for times T.T..

anyway let's leave that dreary topic, December has already come and Christmas is currently near~
the best part of December, for me is of course its holiday..this month I hope a lot of my friends who go abroad can return home, and we can have a get - together... ayo samuel agnet steffi semuanya pulangg..

even if I believe there won't be anything special at this December, I still feel really Thankful XD

kuliah - pusing -

Draft blog nya sih udah kesimpen hampir sebulan lebih, tapi semua kepublishnya hari ini, saking malesnya... *keluardarisaranglaba2*

what happens in this semester is actually nothing special, besides having good time with friends, the other things are completely dreadful.. the tasks and difficulty level of the current semester is really high, also my understanding towards some subjects are really pitiful, Take calculus and PAA for instance, like hell if I can understand a thing from those lectures.
and what really matters for now is, the mid term test schedule is going to be disclosed today, GAH y u no preparation, how can you survive this test? "errmmm, I will survive.....through my prayer, ..... I guess"


PUSINGGGGGGG

you can't put your arms around what's already .........

anyone of you must have already thought about this before....going back to the time when you were in a helpless and fragile moment.. a lot of question appeared before us :
- why didn't I do that at that time?
- why did our time never match?
- why didn't God meet us earlier and purposely(?) let you belong to someone else, yet you still think you are far far much better than that one?
- why should we meet in such a belated impossible situation where one heart blooms bigger after each meetings, and you just feel nothing...

the tighter you try to hold it, the more it rots your heart in the end, yet suppressing feeling is easier said than done, keep caring and you will have yourself bleed by its thorn..
you still can't put your arms around what's already gone / belong to others...
Roxette

another new blog

yeay, akhirnya bikin baru lagi..setelah blog sebelomnya di tumblr sama wordpress dengan dodolnya saya melupakan passwordnya apa, akhirnya bikin lagi dehh...

engga tau sih ini tujuan blognya mau buat apa, tapi berhubung di blog keliatan lebih private (emang iya?) dibanding tuitah atau FB, boleh deh buat ngeshare apa aja yg aneh, kegalauan, kestresan akademis, atau apa aja dehhhh... tujuan 1 lagi sih, karena tekanan pergaulan dan pengen sok gaul. soo, this blog is eventually created, lol...~ is hoping that I can post and more and more